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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Madness Part II

that's it...
I'm done with what i disgracefully call "poems", for one thing i know that half of the things i wrote down mean nothing at all. just random words put together in a semi-comprehensible stanza. Maybe i never really meant it to be understood.

the one thing i really wanted out of a blog was a place to vent out all of my thoughts, and sometimes my emotions.

[Warning: If you don't want to read on and on and on about my views in relationships and the like. leave now. visit Youtube for the occasional interesting vid, or something.]

now now now, where to start, well... I have come to the point of realisation of "High school flings" are just gonna end in tragedy. sometimes even to the point htat the couple in question stop talking to each other completely. so far, I've been lucky in Calgary. had one girl, a very special one at that, and i think she still sees me as a friend. and at this thought, i smile and laugh.

but yeah, back to the point? I'm done. Dates? sure... I'll go (Call me.. XD).. but is there really a point in being involved in a relationship that's gonna fall apart anyways? If relationships are like companies that you KNOW are going to be bankrupt, you're not going to invest in it are you? same logic here. why start something when you know it's gonna end, in disaster at most.

but then again, if the company were to rise from it's little scrape with bankruptcy, the money you have invested would probably triple in quantity. (no I'm not a market expert. don't ask me for advice). same logic applied to relationships and the like. IF the relationship DOES succeed. (small chance of that from my experience). then the rewards would certainly be amazing.

but are we willing to take that risk? maybe, i know i WAS. but I'm NOT saying that i wont be taking any risks. cause' knowing me, i might be thinking this now, and when, in a few days i read this post over, I'm just gonna look at myself in the mirror and say.. WTF Were You On?

well, i mentioned it already in "Madness" but...

"Madness is often described as redoing a failure over and over again, but hoping for a different result to come out."


If that's the case, i think I'll stay SANE for a little while...
But then again, if things go right with C..
I just might get pushed into the madness that i now so desperately try to avoid


---------------------------------[Haunt me not ]
---------------------------------[Arvin Agtarap]
Look away madness
Haunt me not

To your hollow promises
I wont succumb

I will not fall
I will not fail

Till gracious Lady
'doth appear

And if she does
Lord help me so

Let madness flee
And Love Take Control

Let only the light of truth
surround us.

Posted by Arvin A. :: 11:16 PM :: 1 Comments:

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